Thursday, May 26, 2005
I've MOVED. again. hahas.
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A rainbow appeared at12:41 AM***
Monday, May 23, 2005
i want that roxy top!! But its so ex. Its 50, feebs is willing to sponsor 10bucks to it. But my mum still doesnt allow me to buy it.raah! Its a nice black top. =)
im currently being quite uselful.HAHA.helping my brother to draw the words "my contacts" for his hmmms.I dont know what its for either.haha.anyhow, Im just drawing! happily!! hurhurs.
wait wait people.im changing my template again. heeee. brb. =))
A rainbow appeared at1:11 PM***
Friday, May 20, 2005
My house, is invaded with pests. They keep biting me and I hate it.
We got all our papers back today. They were atrociously done. I only passed 3, emaths english and chinese. I failed the rest with an e8 and f9. I cant do anything about it, and I've already used up all of my tears yesterday. I couldnt cry anymore. Sorry to those I've pointed the middle finger to and with the word fuckk. I didnt wanna talk anymore. But I literally shouted at my mum practically letting out everything. stupidity. Why had I wasted time on her when she doesnt CARE?
ho hum.nobody reads this these days. I dont wish to talk about anything today. Not in the mood to. take care. :))
?I dont like you talking to her. JEALOUS. why must she even be on your list of people to call when you cant reach me? I dont like her. MEAN people dont wait for others when they know its a matter of 5mins. ASS. I think my life is so SCREWED now. I need some time alone darling. I dont exactly want to talk to you these days. I've been thinking a lot lately about school, home and more importantly, YOU. Tell me tt I'm not imagining things, but I feel kinda unwanted now. OH YES. I totally forgot about your O's. But I dont think its the reason why you dont have enough time for me. hurhur. I still wanna love you, but its quite hard now. sighs. Tell me its NOT happening. Take care of yourself, its not good to be sick. =)
A rainbow appeared at10:57 PM***
Thursday, May 19, 2005
unproductive day. so lazy, so lazy, so lazzzyyyyyy.ugh.move me.
I was sleepy today, came to school with all the undone work...awful feeling. but anyhow, I got to find out things again today. and now I see the picture how this links to tt and so on. now I understood all those messages tt were written in blogs. Its a whole complicated thing going on, and it'll not be as complicated as it seems when one gives way to the other. im quoting Paris Hilton, "People think I'm stupid. But I'm smarter than most people." ha.
I forgot to give credits to the person whom I've taken the poem from in the previous entry. so, thanks PEARLE. love you babe. I'll try getting you a present yeas? But tell me your birthday, dont tell me its coming. hurhur.=)).
camp patrols are being sorted out. Only Chantel and I aren't holding any leadership position. how cool ehs. we wouldnt have to stay up late for COH and get all those reprimanding. We'll just play and mix around. fun fun. yipee! uhh. I was just trying to console myself la. hahs. But its okay, I have Chantel-the Pamela freak, and she has me-the Chantel freak. haha. we rock.
OBIWAN KENOBI, that Star Wars guy is my patrol's name. hurhur. Sufiartie's the partrol leader and Clarisa the patrol second. I like them. We're such lazy people and we refuse to cook packed lunch. We'll just pack burgers for the company, and cereals for breakfast cause we dont wanna get up early. Live with it. haha. But our budget, suprisingly, is 69.90. I need a reason for this. Its way too expensive.
And there's this Maths Trail today for the first two periods. Our group was supposed to find the height of the tallest point in the hall from the ground. And we used Pythagoras Theorem, Trigo and the Clinometer to measure the elevation. Tell me we're smart. haha. We looked like some professionals doing all those working. Raah! :D
I got to know my combined science results today too. its a 40.8, an E8. I couldnt believe tt I got a 9 out of 30 for Chemistry. I thought 5 out of 25 meant the MCQ, but its for the actual paper. sighs. I really dont know how am I gonna explain all these to my parents, especially my mum. She wouldnt give a shit to any of my explanations. I just hope tt my CA will pull me up, tremendously. I didnt do well for AMaths either. there're 4 passes from 304 and 1 from 305. It wouldnt be me for sure. ='(.
Im gonna work those brains, fats and asses off during the holidays. I'll be productive. I'm looking at the bright side. Hairunnisha really helped me, and so did Amira. Thanks a lot babe :)
its RAINING.
?HEY. Cheng Siang. Im imprinting your name right here. BIG and BOLD. haha. You're an ass okay, scream at me on the phone huhs! I know how to cook kaes. Unlike you, only know how to go out and PLAY. haha. lousy. and Im gonna leave a msg for HER. hahaha. take care =) and go ahead, get jealous.
?DARLINGG. i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you. Dont get jealous la. HE is not important. haha. HUGGGGSSS.
?uhhh. I'll update this later. SOMEONE didnt gave me the mood to. =(
A rainbow appeared at7:36 PM***
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
I don't see you every day,
But that's the way it's gotta be.
Just knowing you are there
Is good enough for me.
You've hugged me when I'm ill,
You've hugged me when I've cried,
You've helped me through the hardest times,
Without even a sigh.
You're always on my mind,
No matter what I do,
Wherever I go, Whatever I see...
It always leads back to you.
I hope you have enjoyed reading
Because I will always and truly love you.
=))love you my sweet lil baby darling*.
A rainbow appeared at11:23 PM***
Monday, May 16, 2005
and this is how we will end
with you and me bent
im kinda lazy to update.but since YOU told me to update, I'll do it. anyhow,this has to be updated sooner or later.so I'll just do it now.raah! lazy. LAZY LAZY.
i cant figure out how to add my doodleboard in so people can tag on them. I cant find the htmls.yea. they're annoying me.and the links are invisible, just go through your cursor over them and you'll find the names down the list.but it'll be updated soon.sorry peeps! =))
anyways, im supposed to go out with you* today. but, you're sick.so i had to pull feebie along with me to visit you.haha. i feel really bad to her though.and she's like the extra light bulb huhs.haha. interupting our privacy.ahaha.but the show was kinda hilarious. their actions and all.haha.im pretty amazed at their BURN BOOK.i'll make one myself too.haha.and feebs shall be the first on the list.hahaa. we idled around her house and she fell asleep but i was too noisy and she had to wake up, sadly.ahaha.i want another hug! =))
oh well.sorry feebie. for not following you to meet jeanette and the others.but i think we bowled quite well anyways. it was embarrassing for two people compared to those on the other lane huhs.their numbers are scary!!haha. oh yes. a 97 and 106 huhs? haha. winks* haha.but.know wad?i dont wanna go cyclingg!!!! remember we're supposed to save money for great singapore sale?!!haha. then we can splurge then! haha. happy hour!!!haha =))
?darlinggg.get well soon yeahs. i might go to your house tomorrow, and we'll watch confessions of a teenage drama queen!!haha. i like your sofa alot.it sinks in.hahaha. oh yes.happy anniversary. haha.funny.dont get jealous ready kaes?ilu!! =)))
?YOU!!ah beng!!!so sick cia.talk about all those things.your brain needs cleaning.godd.ahhaa. uhh.i thought you were shorter than me can!you look short.hahaha.i didnt know you're 167. ahaha.oh well. i have no comments on that.take care!!
?feebieee sohh!!haha. thanks for being so nice to me yea. you really look like a ball when you curl up onto pat's chair.ahah. funny.take care babe! love ya.
A rainbow appeared at11:54 PM***
Friday, May 06, 2005
I see the light die in your eyesCos you're scared you'll hurtSo you don't wanna tryits a feel fat afternoon, i will not eat too much tomorrow. my appetite scares me, i am a disgustingly greedy girl.
i told myself again and again not to be distracted by anything that gets along the way but i cant seem to make it. im hearing things, probably thats why i've been thinking too much lately too. my mood
swings extremely fast. i get emotional and temperamental easily. its a bad week.
the
paper today was supposed to be easy. i know i have studied them and took note of them too. i have even gone through with jeanette this morning. she told me it was important. yea. so why would i forget the answer? i think im seriously getting dumb. i dont know how to explain myself and i cant take it any longer. no one seems to understand my situation.
i didnt want to go
home. its like a daily routine, that the people here just keep shouting at each other. and everyone here argues and reasons out the most unreasonable things. she only cares about academics, she doesnt know anything else. he only cares to eat and sleep. he thinks im lazy and not helping out. even he climbs over me. this is not a
family.
i didnt feel like going anywhere at all. i have no appetite. no energy. i didnt want to do this and that. i just
felt like its impossible to go on. i just wanted to disappear.
i dont even remember smiling happily and genuinely.
?its like i dont know you anymore and you dont know me either. its like suddenly we're worlds apart. it's like suddenly this barrier has grown so big & there's no turning back. you and I dont share things any longer. it's like suddenly i've faded away, somewhere into your memory.
..only you barely remember me
?i was at my worst. a disaster. im sorry for dragging you along with me everywhere i went. although i needed you the most but you were tired. i guess you just cant seem to see through me. i wanted to cry, but i controlled, and i didnt. and i dont blame you. i still love you.
please let tomorrow be better, i honestly hope it'll be better & maybe it will, just maybe.
toodles-
A rainbow appeared at3:38 PM***
